..... a wish .....

I wish You all a Christmas.
It's a great gift to have a chance of living until yet another X-mas. Don't waste it, 'cause it's really up to You to make it Merry - even in the darkest hours. ;P

All the Best and may Good always be with You. :D

.... so many ....

So many people i'll never get to know.... i could spend a lifetime getting to know just one and never could i say i know them for each day brings a change

So many books i'll never read... even if i read them day and nigth, all my life, for each day brings new ones... and takes a few with it ... forever....

So many blogs i'll never see.... they appear and dissapear leaving no time to choose....

So many people i'll never meet.... born each day and passing away as well

So many thoughts are lost to me.... never to be found again....

So many feelings....

So many.....

Too much for a life time.
And even with an eternal life one can do so little at a time with so many things shreded into oblivion by the claws of time.

Only chance guides us, even if it's up to us to choose the direction and the path....

But, funnly, not many things happen by chance - if any....

There is something beyond all these many things..... a unity to them all.... if not, what would be the point to such a diversity.... a decisive chaos?

.... game over ....

GAME OVER
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.... vertigo .....

Since i was a teenager (and even earlier, but my memory never served me well ;P) i had visions brought to life in my imagination. One could say these were thoughts that found me... unlike all those i gave birth to, these were already shaped when awoken... They have always been of symbolic nature, showing what i was and what was within me...
And always have they been a unity of meaning, though in a variety of shapes... until recently... A few months ago a new vision came to be, alongside another change within and beyond me...
Now, each part of me seems to have become a new entity, yet still, together they remain a singular being - me. But they're tearing me apart, each growing stronger... And with each passing day i feel as if cought in a chaotic storm with a void in the very centre of it... Meanings, shapes, thoughts, beings, multiple selves have been awoken, yet still .... i am one.
And i can't make out the results of this storm... even though i realise that the outcome will be what i choose it to be... and yet ... uncertainty fills me as every minute is a shift... and a shift... and a shift.....

I am.